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Temporary...

2005-02-13T20:18:00.000-08:00

Hi Everyone,
I'll be so busy this few months, and I will not be able to update this blog often.
So I decided to move my writing to Xanga, www.xanga.com/aurel1a
Why? Well its because I personally feel xanga is more light and everyday life and I guess because many of friends use xanga.
I will be back to blogger, when I already have good experience with html so I can make my page looks great ^_*

Until then, I offically declared that this blog is in hiatus.

Best Regards,
aurelia

I'm back!

2005-01-25T06:04:00.000-08:00

Akhirnya, setelah sibuk with all the finals and trus pulang indo for the whole month, I'm back. Both back to Madison and write this blog. But seeing my seventeen credit and ten hours of work that I am taking this semester make me doubt that I'll actively write this blog *sighed*

Anyway, as usual, Indo is wonderful, both Jakarta and Surabaya. Life was so nice there. With my most wonderful parents, my funny sister and my cute brother, what can I ask for more?
Heii....I know what you thinking, I miss one thing. Well it is not really my priority now. But if God decided to grant me one, then I will gladly accepted =D
Huah *sighed*, what a wonderful holiday....

Back to Madison, beside meaning back to reality as a college student also meaning back to meet all my great friends. Eveline, Gunawan, Carla, Elka, Manda, Reggie, Xiao Gie, Chris, Mira, and still many many more. Unfortunately, Evie is back for good already, she just said to me that life in Surabaya nowadays is boring (of course is boring, without me kok...hehehehe)

Too much confidence, huahaha, btw suprisin both Eveline and Reggie this January, the 21st and the 24th. Happy Birthday you guys, Thanks for always be there for me.

The Feeling

2004-12-02T13:33:00.000-08:00

Hei you! do you know that I miss you? I miss talking to you, I miss telling you my story, I miss your advices, I miss your concern over me, I miss your joke, I miss you..... Not sure when we will meet again, but "soon" is the word that I'm looking for. Somehow this feeling is here, I have no idea why, I never felt this way before, but I do now.
If I told this to you, you probably only smile and then advice me not to listen too many love songs or watch too many dramas :) But I think eventhough I do less of that, I will still miss you.
I hope that I will meet you soon, and you will see me as a different person. I changed you know!
I have move toward maturity. And I really hope that it will make me a better person.

Apel and Love

2004-11-14T09:27:00.000-08:00

Apel ada bermacam-macam, besar kecil dan warna-warni. Ada apel yang di luar terlihat merah dan menggiurkan, tapi didalamnya ternyata sudah busuk. Ada juga apel yang terlihat mentah dan masam, tapi sebenarnya manis. Love is like an Apple. You never know the taste, if you never experience it before ( from expect a miracle).
Baru aja, gua nonton satu movie yg menurut gua bagus banget, Expect a Miracle. Cinematography-nya emang nga terlalu bagus, tapi inti cerita-nya bagus banget. Simple love story that funny, and somehow in some part I can relate it to myself. Mungkin krn itu ya, gua jadi suka banget.

Interesting ya cerita tentang apel ini, and I think is so true.

Anyway, need to go back to study. These past few weeks, I really turn out like a nerd, study, study and study. Haiyaa, Ganbatee girl, you can do it.

ps: buat Elka and Eveline, Ganbatee juga yaaaa.

Sahabat sejati

2004-10-09T23:27:00.000-07:00

"Betapa menyenangkan punya sahabat sejati..."
Hati anda gundah. Masalah tak kunjung selesai. Situasi buruk. Siapa yang anda cari? Guru? Orang tua? kebanyakan orang muda akan mengungkapkannya kepada teman.
Apa sih persahabatan itu? Ada yang namanya kenalan, teman, sobat dekat, sahabat sejati. Kita pasti punya kenalan. Orang-orang yang bisa kita temui, tetangga yang kita sapa, pak tua yang tinggal di RT 12, si Noni yang cantik, si Bejo yang ganteng...pinter lagi. Bila sering bertemu, saling sapa, kita jadi lebih mengenalnya, dan mungkin bisa jadi teman.
Teman-teman akrab terjalin karena minat dan kegiatan yang sama. Saling membagi pengalaman, ambil waktu untuk bergaul itu semua menyenangkan.
Namun sahabat sejati adalah dambaan dan kebutuhan setiap orang...dia akan berdiri di sisi kita, tak peduli apapun situasinya. Dia mendengarkan kita dan secara tulus memiliki minat akan sesuatu demi kebaikan kita. Dia akan menyampaikan kebenaran, meskipun kadang menyakitkan. Tapi kita harus lapang dada, sebab maksudnya baik dan dilakukan untuk kebaikan kita.
Carilah selalu teman dan sahabatmu di seluruh dunia!!!

Gua dapet artikel ini dari website adek gua, dia dapet inspirasi dari sebuah buku dan post in di website-nya.

Sahabat sejati adalah teman yg akan berdiri di sisi kita no matter what, punya niat tulus dan akan melakukan yg terbaik buat sahabat-nya. Gua 100% stuju ama dia, tapi yg jadi pertanyaan sekarang, apakah gua punya kriteria itu, sehingga gua bisa dikategorikan sahabat sejati buat seseorang???
Kalo direfleksi, gua sendiri bakal bilang gua punya, tapi pertanyaan-nya sekarang...apakah gua udah nunjukin itu ke sahabat gua? Apakah mereka merasakan? If not I need to do something to fix it!
For sure I do have "sahabat sejati". They stand behind me and support me all the way. I feel really blessed by having them.

ps: I recently learn that selfishness and ego can stand in way of a friendship.

Tuntutan dunia

2004-09-28T21:42:00.000-07:00

Gua capeek....
Gua merasa dunia itu penuh dengan tuntutan, and kita sebagai manusia harus berusaha memenuhi tuntutan itu supaya kita bisa survive.
Misalnya aja, kita jadi students harus pinter, kalo nga pinter nanti susah dapet kerja and malu-malu-in keluarga. Jadi cowok mesti punya pemikiran luas, kalo sempit, katanya kekanak-kanakan. Jadi cewek mesti pinter masak, salah satu kritiria jadi ibu rumah tangga yg baik. Trus masih ada lagi, tuntutan physical appearance, yg akhirnya bikin banyak org operasi plastik la....suntik botok la... sedot lemak la..... and masih banyak lagi.
Gua capek! tuntutan dunia ini udah overwhelmed gua, tapi dipenuhi merupakan satu "keharusan". Sering banget gua berkhayal bisa balik ke masa kecil, dimana gua nga perlu peduli tuntutan dunia, hidup tenang dan bahagia, nga perlu pusink kiri, pusink kanan, but again itu cuman kahayalan.

Nobody is Perfect

2004-09-21T08:32:00.000-07:00

Gue baru-baru ini mengamati kiri kanan gue. Gue perhati-in org2 di sekitar gue. And.... I noticed something and I want to share with everyone. I notice that nobody is perfect.

As examples, Si A, he's so cool, he's nice, handsome, but not that smart. L, she's active, she's mature, but she's soooo bosy ( I mean it, she's so bosy and its really annoy me) that make her not nice.
M, she's smart, she's nice, she's rich, but she's can be consider as a geek. Last one is S, he's smart, capable in almost everything, good looking, and great friend too, but dia org-nya lupa-an.

Abis merhati-in mereka, gue jadi nyadar, ternyata Tuhan itu emang adil, semua org ada kelebihan ama kekurangan-nya masing-masing.

Somehow I felt my confidence rise. I used to fell that I'm this one ugly, stupid duck, but now, not anymore.

Be yourself....not!

2004-08-22T14:52:00.000-07:00

Will you change yourself for love?
If one day, cowok atau cewek lu tiba2 minta lu brubah buat dia, will you do that?
Misalkan nich, cewek lu tiba2 bilang, "gue mau lu rambutnya panjang kayak F4" , padahal lu benci banget yg namanya rambut model gitu, krn susah diatur and ribet sana sini, will you do that for her?
Another example, misalkan nich, cowok lu tiba2 bilang "menurut gue lu mestinya pake contact lens daripada kacamata", padahal lu lebih prefer kacamata krn its more comfortable for you, will you do that for him?
Gue tiba2 mikir soal ini, krn temen gue tiba2 nanya ke gue, "yun pernah nga cowok lu nuntut lu buat lebih pinter?" Trus gue nanya donk, "napa emang-nya?"
Ternyata ceweknya (temen gue co btw) rada "maksa" buat supaya dia dapet nilai bagus buat exam2-nya (rada lucu sih gue pikir2, kok kayak nyokap2 =p) and buat dapet nilai lebih bagus itu, dia mesti sacriface waktu dia buat maen basket (which he like so much). But he willing to do that. He did change for her.
Gue mrasa ini nga adil buat temen gue. DIA itu DIA, kenapa mesti brubah buat ceweknya? Bukan-nya ce-nya suka dia pertama-nya krn DIA itu DIA? So why the sudden request?

Males banget.....

2004-08-20T08:03:00.000-07:00

Do you ever tired of talking to someone? What I mean by talking is having a conversation with that specific person! Well I did.
I know that person, let just say the name is A, I have known A for quite sometime. And we never have trouble find a conversation topics, and we still don't. But suddenly I feel tired of talking to A. Tired of telling A what happen today, tired of telling A my whole fun story, tired to answer A's questions, I'm just tired. I even avoid A when A was online on MSN (thats really unusual, coz we used to talk of endless topic on msn).
AT first I have no idea, why that happen? It's kind of impossible. But I just figured, it because A always want to know what happen in my life. When I dont tell, A will say "Gitu lu Yun ya" -_-
Argghhh that really pissed me off. CAn you sometimes just mind your own business? Huh.....

Pindahan....

2004-08-15T21:12:00.000-07:00

Sunday 11 am, bangun tidur ku terus mandi, terus bantuin pindahan.... Hari ini gue bantuin 4 orang pindahan, gile sih (seharusnya 5 org sih, tapi gue janji helpnya jam 10, and since gue bangun jam 11, telat dechhh , sorriiiii dechhh...)
2 dari temen gue ini tinggalnya di studio efficiency gitu, kecil and compact tapii..... oh my god barangnya banyak banget. Gue sampe ikutan pusink... Kita sibuk2 bersihin karpet, ngepack-in barang, masukin ke u haul, etc etc. By jam 4, semua udah teler, gimn nga teler, pada blon makan semua dari pagi and kita udah ngangkutin berapa puluh kardus and barang yg berat-nya udah nga tau berapa kg. Haiyaaa...Akhirnya pas kita makan (di buffee nich) makan-nya dah kayak org rakus semua,kayak berapa hari nga makan, huahahaha. lucu juga sih.

My biological clock

2004-08-13T01:10:00.000-07:00

Gue pusink nih sekarang....Summer dah mau habis, sekolah dah mau mulai, tapi biological clock gue masih kacau. Bayangin yach, gue tiap malem (salah ding, tiap subuh) baru bisa tidur jam 5 atau jam 6 pagi. And bangun jam 12 atau 1 siang gitu, gilaaa itu udah setengah hari abis.
Waktu masa liburan, itu sih no problem, gimana kalo waktu sekolah? Gimana solusi-nya dong? Skip semua kelas pagi atau ambil kelas yg semua-nya evening classes?
Nah sebelon mulai sekolah, gue rencana mau normalin gue punya biological clock. But I think I already messed up pretty bad with it. So its kind of hard for me to back to normal. Buktinya, pas gue ngetik ini, jam laptop gue udah jam 1:05 AM and gue masih totally seger, padahal kemaren cuman sempet tidur malem 1 jem (long story...) and tadi napping 2 jem doang. Total jem tidur gue kemaren brarti cuman 3 jam -_- Gimana coba???

Love is....

2004-08-10T12:07:00.000-07:00

What is love?. Can you tell what is love? Kapan lu bisa ngerasa that lu really falling in love and not just a fling? Can you make it sure? Can you predict that the guy or the gal was your true love? Is you can, what make you sure?
In my personal opinion, love is when you tried to protect your beloved from everything which are bad. Because your heart is bleeding when you see he/her hurt, eventhough the "hurt" was probably only a small knife cut. I think no matter what type of love is that (friendship love, family love or love between man and woman), love means protect and care. You will always want to protect and take care you loved ones.
I know this sound melankolis (or what ever you called it) after all I just learn about this after reading novels and watching movies, but isn't fiction was reflection of real life?

saturday events

2004-08-08T02:56:00.000-07:00

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa, hari ini disiram gue pas mau nyuprisin temen b'day. Gue pikir pertamanya cuman b'day boy doang yg disiram, tapi kok semua? oh well I think its kind of fun sih, but rada gimn juga. unexplainable.
Eniwei nonton tom cruise nich sore tadi, padahal nga mau nonton film anything with tom cruise, but I guess since, tom cruise nya jahat, gpp laaa =p
Maem di ocean grill, di capital, dah lama nich nga coba2 resto2, pingin lagi nyoba2 gitu, seru juga, bisa adventure.
Siangnya sebelon nonton sama makan, maen laser quest, fun abis, gue mau tuh maen sering, walaupun peringkat 18 dari 22, okay laaaa =p second timer.
Malem-nya kayak kemaren kumpul2 di rumaaahh gue lagi, asikkk, seruuu bangeeeeeeeeeeeetttttt, gw seneng banget, heuhehhee. maen cap sah, uno, ama risk. Gue mesti blajar nich maen risk (ama chris sih yg jago), kemaren gue di babat abis ama yg laen, kalah, hik hik hik.

2004-08-07T02:22:00.000-07:00

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summer daaahh mau abisss, hik hik

2004-08-07T01:55:00.000-07:00

Waaaa udah tgl 7 agustus niiicchh. Summer dah mau kelar. sedih, hik hik. udah nga bisa maen2 lagi, nga bisa sering2 bikin kue, nga bisa sering kumpul2, trus dingin laagiii.
Weekend di fall nga mungkin bisa kayak skrg dech. *sighed*

I did some thinking yesterday, kok gue nga pingin pulang indo ya summer ini? Padahal biasa gw pulang setengah taun sekali. Kalo nga pulang kayaknya dunia dah mau kiamat. Kali ini nga kangen sama sekali di indo. Setelah gue pikir2 ternyata, krn gue punya banyak bolo kali ini, nga seperti summer2 taun kemaren. Trus nyokap gue juga dah dateng, so no reason laaa for going home (I guess I love her that much hah). This summer is full of fun.
That's why gue sedih, summer dah mau abis (apalagi I think this is my last summer at madison). Mana critanya blon kelar lagii (moga2 bisa kelar in few day.) Masih banyak kerjaaan lagii. Haiyaaaa.

Devils Lake

2004-08-01T00:40:00.000-07:00

Today, I was going for some BBQ at the Devils Lake. Don't asked me why they named it Devils Lake. It 's just it. After BBQ, we planned for some hiking. Well since I was still suffering from the previous 2 straight hours badminton games, gw pikir nga usah ikutan laaa, masih sakit juga. Tapi semua pada hiking, gw jadi sendirian kalo nga ikutan. Akhirnya dengan penuh keberanian, gw paksain buat naek juga.

Along the trail, some peoples were glace over me, huehheee. The reason was simple, I guess they never saw someone who wear skirt and high heels do some hiking. But I did =p
Although halfway through it, I'm changing my high heels to sandals, but I keeping the skirt.
Sukses juga sih gw, nyampe di "finish". But I was so tired, not to mentioned that my legs were killing me. Fun though. Pulang, ngantuk berat dan akhirnya napping. Kayaknya semua juga cape dech, kita nga kumpul2 dech, yaaa, rada kecewa sih, but oh well. Sunday is coming up and "big" plan are set for tomorrow, I hope =p

Seru abis

2004-07-29T23:10:00.000-07:00

wah hari ini seru bangeet, gua maen badminton selama +- 2 jem, capek banget, tangan gw ampir patah kayaknya. but its sooo fuun. Since maen-nya ama master-master badminton, gw belajar banyak dech. I think my skill improved a lot.
Btw my mon just called and she asked me why I haven't sleep? Pas gw bilang, ini masih pagi ma, gw pernah ama anak2 maen capsah sampe matahari udah terbit, dia shock. Untung gw nga bilang kalo bergadang sampe matahari terbitnya nga cuman sekali alias udah sering banget, (terutama yg waktu masih ada hans and pas bikinin dia scrapbook). Nyokap gw bisa double shock kali.

Oh since kemaren lupa tulis blog, ya mention dikit2 la hari ini, gw kemaren sempat bt gara-gara bus. Gimn nga bt, bus udah gw tungguin 15 menit nga dateng. Padahal gw liat jelas banget di schedule ada. Dasar tuh bus. Haiyaa! Trus beli subway di state street, darn, customer service-nya jelek abis. Gw bener-bener kecewa, udah ngomongnya kasar, trus sambil bikin sub-nya sambil ngomel-ngomel sendiri (gw sampe doa-doa moga2 nga hujan di sub gw) Gw mrasa sial abis dech kemaren, tapi malemnya gw udah biasa lagi, abis chat2 ama temen2 baek gw. Jadi tenang =p

ps: special for siduahuruf: oii, gw nga jadi dech tulis pake jawa, biar lu bisa baca =)

Non specific

2004-07-27T21:00:00.000-07:00

Tuesday is one day in a week that I work from 2 pm to 9 pm, seven straight hours, crazy I know! It's fun though, coz you actually running around helping people, which I like.
Don't know whether I'm happy or stress today, but I did eat a lot today. And mostly are snacks *groaned* . Come on jia you, ganbattee, remember halle berry (ya nga elka =p)
Browsing Friendster today, and found some old friends, jeez I miss them a lot, and miss those high school time.

I was wondered today coz one of my friend said that I'm one straight forward gal. And I really dont think so. but if I do, is it a good thing or a bad one? *shrugged*

I guess I'm done for today, tomorrow must be have more entry, soalnya besok ada banyak rencana, mulai dari renang, bikin lapis surabaya, etc2, sip dech!

First time

2004-07-27T00:13:00.000-07:00

wah, first day nich. Never write blog before. Well I guess there is always first time for everything, right?
The person that responsible for this new hobby of mine is Elka. This girl is 3 years younger than me, yet she can influence me, ck ck ck.
Eniwei, let see what I have in mind today. Oh yeah, this question was throw by one of my friend some time ago, which one do you choose friendship or love?
I was confused. Tough question! Love's not come everyday, and real friendship too.
If I choose friendship, then what happen if he/she is my true love?
If I prefer love, do I able to lose the friendship?
One word, tough, tough and tough! What do you guys think?
Finished one chapter more of my story today (Did I mention I like to write story?). This writing thing really enjoyable to me, although sometimes give me headache, especially when writer's block disease attacked me. Hmm, wonder what the cure?